I’m an unemployed student.  I took my tax returns from my job a year ago and the money I got from book buy back and I spent it all on Rockies’ tickets.  Every last penny went to the Rockies.  Now all my funds have dwindled down to nothing and I still haven’t found myself a new job.  The point of this, I have to start picking my games wisely, games that have good matchups or bobblehead nights.  I thought last night would have been the perfect game to go to.  The much anticipated return of Tulo and Aaron Cook on the mound, and we were playing the Mets!  How could we lose?  By giving up 5 runs in the second inning and then 2 more later on 15 hits.  Even after Baker gave us hope by hitting a homerun in the bottom of the 1st with a man on, we couldn’t make it happen.  There are a lot of smart guys on the team, Francis was a physics major and Iannetta was a math major, I wonder if they could figure out why this equation didn’t work. 
    And as usual there is a flipside; Tulo is back.  After that heart shattering game in San Fran where he hurt himself I have felt such great despair.  To put that pressure on a young player is never fair, but I believe that Tulo has always taken responsibility to carry the team on his shoulders.  He needs to take that weight off and let some of the other guys pick it up, but there is no doubt that he takes his role very seriously and is a leader in the club.  This is apparent to everyone and people make a point of saying it, so how do you give that responsibility to a kid?  And how do you take that off his back?  All that I really know is that I am happy to have him back and the fans of Colorado and baseball fans in general are excited to see him.  Here’s to hoping that he gets his batting average up and that his injury doesn’t hinder his future.  Happiness is seeing Tulo’s name on the lineup card.
    Despite our loss last night we still can win this series, there are still 2 games left.  If we win the rest of our series then we will have more than a winning record, we just need to keep the bats hot or heat some up.  We need to keep Baker in the lineup until Barmes comes back and then we need to keep him in the dugout.  Our pitching has to clean itself up, most of the guys are getting there control, but they need to keep it with some consistency too.  We still have a lot of things to do, but I’m happy they are playing better than they were. 
    So 2 more games against the Mets and then we head to Kansas City, Missouri.  My mom is from South East Kansas and her family is spread out through those parts of Kansas and Missouri.  Her baby brother recently found out that he has a brain tumor.  We still don’t really know what is going on, it was just 2 days ago that they called us to tell us what it was.  We don’t know what happens next, but I talked to my grandpa yesterday and he thinks it is a good idea for some of us to go out and visit him.  His wife is a physician and he is a stay-at-home dad with a girl and twin boys.  Between the aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces, nephews, siblings and so forth with the family members, there are several bakers dozens of family members who want to go out and visit him.  My grandpa called me yesterday, aware of my summer break and unemployment status, he thinks I should go out to Missouri and stay with the family and help with things as all the relatives shuffle in and out.  I’m not really good with people and kids are a puzzle to me, but they like going to the Kansas City Royals games, so I’m thinking I might go.  The exciting thing in the midst of this tragedy is that I would leave Sunday and we would get to go to the series in KC against the Rockies.  I have never been to a road game except for Spring Training, which doesn’t really count.  So this could be a fun baseball experience.  I’m not trying to use this sad situation with my uncle to my benefit, I’m just trying to look on the upside of this.  Also I get to spend time with my cousins who I don’t really know because they live far away and the age gap is pretty large.  Lauren is 7 years younger than me and the boys are 10 years younger.  I’m really close with my cousin Jim who lives in Kansas and my brother Max is a nanny (sounds silly, but he just plays football with a few little boys all day and makes bank) so I know they will be able to help me should I commit to this.  Everything is happening so fast and this past week has just been a mess, there is too much going on.  I’m hoping to leave without having to even talk to my boyfriend, because that is a whole mess within itself and something I just don’t need to deal with. 
    If you read this, I am sorry.  I am a mess right now.  In a week I will return and probably delete this, but for now it feels good to get it out of me.

–Signing off–Amy “bon voyage” Peterson